July 19th, 2008

Now Let My Body Hit The Floor…

Let me tell you about yesterday at BlogHer…ready?

1.  We got there late for various reasons so we practically ran in order to get to the first panel.
2.  I cried at that panel just a wee bit for what seemed to be no reason.
3.  I discovered I had gotten my period. Crybaby mystery solved.
4.  I somehow picked the vegetarian lunch rather than one that might have tasted better.
5.  Later on, I ended up contorting my wrist in a way that I was teary from the pain.
6.  After taking a vicodin at a later lunch that I actually ate, I became totally sick to my stomach.
7.  My cell phone died completely. Twice.
8.  I passed out at like 11:30 pm but am unsure.

Heavens to Murgatroid…the only way to be sure of ANYTHING I did yesterday is to check my Twitter because uh, wow.  The day moved so quickly and with each passing hour my emotions vacillated so much that even *I* was shocked by my Ugly Mood Swings (or UMS, as David Addison would say).  You know that there will be jillions of people writing jillions of recap posts, pretty much all of which ending with, “Oh My God, I so totally loved BlogHer and it was the best experience of my life!”.  This won’t be one of those blogs.  However, let me be clear about one thing so I don’t get raged upon or whatever….I am not dissing BlogHer in any way, shape, or form.  I made a clear statement earlier this year about BlogHer probably not being my “scene”.  I made the statement again a month ago when I told Karl that I probably should just hang in the sidelines and go to parties.  I made the statement here in my blog and/or to anyone who would listen on Thursday afternoon.  I know my wonky way of seeing the world and the limitations that causes but I was determined to put my heart and soul into the effort of loving it.  I went with an open mind and did what everyone else was doing.  I really tried to enjoy every moment of it and be as excited as everyone else but I just wasn’t.

I think I may be defective.

There were, however, moments of greatness.  There were fleeting thoughts of how wonderful a lot of the women are and/or how great it was to see so many happy people in one place.  I’m impressed with how much solidarity and sisterhood emanates from one place.  I’m also extremely grateful that I got to meet some people that I have wanted to hug for a very very long time.  In case anyone reads this and misinterprets the point (which they will anyway), this isn’t about you, BlogHer…it’s about me.  I have nothing NEGATIVE to say about the experience and would never ever put people down who have had a most awesome time.  It just wasn’t my cup of tea…not this time around, anyway.  And hey, I am self-aware enough to say that it could very well be that the timing of my life falling apart coinciding with the conference might have a helluva lot to do with it. 

So whatever.  I am totally in a good mood today and am ready to have fun with the gays and Foo, who is driving down to party with us this evening.  This is the last day we are going to be in the area so I totally want to make the most of it.  Besdides, I think everyone deserves a day of “NON PMS MONSTER WHORE HILLY”.  Because believe you me, man oh man, I’ve been a bit snarky.   All in all though, I am extremely glad I went to BlogHer because it was an experience that I needed to witness for myself.  Even though it was not the most enjoyable time of my life, I did learn a little bit from the people there.  Most importantly, I learned a lot about myself and that is all any woman can ever ask for, right?  Who knows, maybe when I’ve had time to relax and reflect, I will discover that BlogHer did indeed teach me something after all.

“Sweet Jesus, Where Are The Asprin?” Kisses,
Me

Posted in Emotional Technology, Hilly's Life 2008 | Comments (17)

17 Responses to “Now Let My Body Hit The Floor…”

  1. MB Says:
    July 19th, 2008 at 9:41 am

    There is nothing better than partying with the gays to make a girl feel better.

    You may want to take something stronger than asprin.

    MBs last blog post..Let the Sun Shine In ….

  2. flickrlovr Says:
    July 19th, 2008 at 9:41 am

    Sorry the experience wasn’t all rosy and nice and un-painful, but I’m glad you got the chance to at least go and see what’s up with BlogHer. It sucks when you’re out of town or at a big event (or both) and aren’t feeling tip top…so that’s a bummer! But sounds like you have a good attitude in spite of it all. Yay Hilly!

    Have fun today :)
    flickrlovrs last blog post..A Poll & A Retraction

  3. kilax Says:
    July 19th, 2008 at 10:08 am

    I don’t think it would be for me either. I tend not to get into things like that, but it’s great that you went anyway, just to see what it’s like… rather than dissing it (which a lot of people seem to?). :)

  4. SJ Says:
    July 19th, 2008 at 10:32 am

    I can’t believe you just quoted David Addison!!! Do bears bear? Do bees be?

    Even though it turned out as you suspected it would, at least you gave BlogHer a shot. Next weekend will make up for it!

    SJs last blog post..Welcome to Perfection

  5. Winter Says:
    July 19th, 2008 at 12:06 pm

    I always got the impression it wouldn’t have been my thing either. Blah, blah, blah is so not fun. Partying with the gays sounds much better. Don’t feel bad that you didn’t like it, not everything is for everyone. And you probably will have more fun next weekend. I’ll be the one sick to her stomach then. Nerves. Heh ;)
    Winters last blog post..Fuck Me Muse

  6. karen Says:
    July 19th, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    I didn’t know anyone else even SAID Murgatroid….did spell check recognize it?? As usual, you have a great perspective, and if people don’t get it that you are owning your experience, then they’re daft!

  7. Iron Fist Says:
    July 19th, 2008 at 12:45 pm

    Have fun today. No day spent with the gays can turn out badly.

    (I think you should kiss Jester again and post the picture.)

  8. adena Says:
    July 19th, 2008 at 12:48 pm

    I suspect that if I had gone, I would have been bored out of my mind, and a little freaked out at the amount of people surrounding me.

    I grew up being forced to go to mass conventions of people, and sitting and listening to people talk at me (and everyone else) for hours on end.

    The only difference (to me) is that BlogHer wouldn’t be talking about God. Otherwise, I think my great, creaking horror would be the same.

    adenas last blog post..Teacher, I finished my assignment!

  9. turnbaby Says:
    July 19th, 2008 at 1:08 pm

    I hope you have a fun time today sugar.

    And take care of your wrist.

    turnbabys last blog post..Savage Breast Soothed

  10. suze Says:
    July 19th, 2008 at 5:52 pm

    Take care of your wrist!!! And now you know about Blogher - I often will avoid situations I don’t think I’ll enjoy rather than at least giving it a shot, so good on you for that!

    Hope today was good.

    suzes last blog post..with my freeze-ray I will stop the pain…

  11. Nat Says:
    July 19th, 2008 at 7:21 pm

    Having been sent on numerous conferences for work, I’m pretty sure it’s not my scene either. Good on you for going.

    Have fun with gays tonight. :)
    Nats last blog post..One dwarf or two?

  12. Avitable Says:
    July 20th, 2008 at 6:00 am

    You didn’t leave with a renewed faith in the future of womanity? Were you a wingman for Karl so he could get some mommyblogger sexytime?

    Sorry the weekend turned out to be kind of like you expected. Hopefully the rest of it is fun.

    Avitables last blog post..Lazy Sunday XLVII

  13. Sybil Law Says:
    July 20th, 2008 at 7:05 am

    Yeah, I have a feeling that I might not love everything going on at BlogHer, too. But it’s great that you gave it a shot!
    And who needs aspirin when you’ve got Vicodin?!
    Hope you’re feeling better and having a good time now!

    Sybil Laws last blog post..Trolls

  14. hello haha narf Says:
    July 20th, 2008 at 8:00 am

    while it wasn’t a wahoo fantastic weekend, i love that you went in with an open mind and came out not exactly disappointed. if you would have wanted it to suck or wanted it to be spectacular, then you might have been let down, but all in all it doesn’t sound like a bad way to spend some time with the wonderful karlerikson. :)

    hope time with the boys makes you all about happy. squeeze jester with a giant hug from me, please. umb and othurme as all, please! make sure they are ass grabbin hugs. none of that wimpy shit.

  15. Karl Says:
    July 20th, 2008 at 9:33 am

    Yeah, just not your scene. At least you tried it. I had the best of both worlds…BlogHer AND SecondHand Jesterpoo 2.

    Karls last blog post..Sum-sum-sum-sum-summertime…

  16. metalmom Says:
    July 20th, 2008 at 2:26 pm

    “Murgatroid” and “David Addison”

    You are a font of TV trivia tastiness!

    metalmoms last blog post..I Ain’t Clownin’

  17. sam Says:
    July 21st, 2008 at 11:53 am

    Sorry it turned out as you thought it might. At least now you can say “Been There Done That.”, right?

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