August 1st, 2008

All She Wants Is….

I stole this from my friend SJ, who unfortunately has decided to give up blogging.  Interestingly enough, this post was a lot harder to do than I thought it would be.  The reason for that, however, is probably because no matter how much I wear my heart on my sleeve, there are little secrets that I refuse to divulge here.  So anyway, blah blah, here we go….

I want to:
know what love is. again.
write my post about sex sooner than later.
find a hobby that doesn’t involve me sitting on my ass.
dance like nobody’s watching, even though that saying is so fucking cheesy.
stop thinking mean things about people inside of my head.

I want to think:
that you really do love me, just the way I am.
that I make a difference in someone’s life, no matter how small.
that I’m as clever and witty as I believe myself to be!
about the world we live in and life in general.
about poetry, art, books, and love songs…then share them with someone who lights up from the same things.

I want to learn:
to swear in every language there is.
to speak Spanish fluently.
to conquer my fear of skydiving.
what it is that’s really holding me back.
about as many cultures and religions as I can.

I want to see:
an adorkable smile as you take my hand.
my introverted friends rule their individual domains with certainty.
the sun set over an Italian village (where I am staying).
through the eyes of a child.
Ryan Reynolds at my front door. Seriously.

I want to try:
smoking pot one last time.
not giving my opinion when not asked for it. (snorty lala)
to eat Kosher for 30 days.
living a both a Christ-like and Buddha-inspired existence.
fugu, cause I’m a daredevil like that.

I want to tell:
him exactly how I feel.
stories that mean something to others.
the world to slow down so I can remember to breathe.
jokes without sounding like an epic failure.
you my secrets and know that you’ll still love me.

I want to touch:
ummmm…something I can’t tell you about?
your hair, even though you hate it. give it up, bitches.
ummmm…something else I can’t tell you about?
my kitty’s soft fur when he falls asleep on my lap.
the waves as they crash against me.

I want to smell:
gardenias in bloom
the ocean as it foams across my feet.
a man’s clean skin without cologne.
my hair when it’s fresh out of the ponytail and still squeaky clean.
Christmas. yanno, trees, wreaths, pine cones, cocoa, cookies, etc.

I want to feel:
loved
accepted
respected
beautiful and sexy
butterflies in my tummy

I want to stop:
the tapes that constantly play in my head.
wondering what people think of me.
beating myself up for my faults.
letting my insecurities matter as much as they do.
the world and melt with you.

I want to let go of:
old resentments.
the hold that years of manipulative guilt trips have over me.
the idea that dreams can’t come true. they totally can.
the past.
a whole lot of weight without losing my hot tits!

What do *you* want?

Serendipitous Kisses,
Me

Posted in Emotional Technology, Hilly's Life 2008, Memes and Quizzes | Comments (23)

23 Responses to “All She Wants Is….”

  1. Karl Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 12:39 am

    Marvelous wants, all.

    Karls last blog post..All I Want

  2. Unkey Monkey Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 12:42 am

    Yep, you’re a Scorpio! Let’s go to the beach! :cool:

    I love the post!

  3. delmer Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 5:18 am

    I think the Bangles next question would be, “Do you know what you need?”

    delmers last blog post..Grilling

  4. Miss Britt Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 5:37 am

    Is it weird I’m singing the Rolling Stones in my head right now?

    Miss Britts last blog post..How NOT To Communicate With Your Partner In The Bedroom…

  5. Selma Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 5:39 am

    Such a great list but please don’t do the fugu. I’ve heard some bad stories. If the chef doesn’t know what he’s doing it’s curtains for the fugu-eater. I beg of you - don’t do the fugu. :!:

    Oh, and I want to feel that every day has some kind of possibility.

    Selmas last blog post..Picture Yourself In A Boat On A River

  6. suze Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 6:11 am

    I often say that about the world - slow down, so I can breathe. And then I remember that the world won’t bend to my will, that I need to remember to just simply slow myself down and breathe - the world’s not gonna do it.

    Somedays it’s easier said than done. Trust me, I know.

    I think you’re swell, just the way you are, but I think you also know that.

    suzes last blog post..oh the shark has pearly teeth dear, and he shows them pearly white…

  7. Winter Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 6:39 am

    Very thoughtful Hilly-Wants. Unsurprising to me because I think I kinda get you. Totally a worthy list, however. My want…to matter.

    Winters last blog post..Shake Me

  8. Nat Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 6:39 am

    Do you remember that Foreigner song “I want to know what love is?” — I read about love and now it is stuck in my head.

    Love is all around my dear. Good list.

    Nats last blog post..The song remains the same…

  9. Crys Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 6:57 am

    i hear you on Ryan Reynolds. two nites ago we watched Def, Maybe and OH MY GOD. he’s so TALL. i could climb him like a tree

    Cryss last blog post..You

  10. Dragon Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 7:20 am

    You’re lovely, my dear.

    Dragons last blog post..Balsamic Blueberries & Peaches with Black Pepper

  11. Poppy Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 8:12 am

    I want to find a place to live my very first day of looking so I can hurry back to VT to scoop up my kittos and take them Home.

    As for you, I’m just going to keep telling you things until you believe them: You are beautiful.

    Poppys last blog post..You’d think I’d have something really profound to write here today. hmm.

  12. Poppy Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 8:12 am

    PS - and sexy. Anyone who tells you to not do the cleavage shots is an idiot.

    Poppys last blog post..You’d think I’d have something really profound to write here today. hmm.

  13. Justin Scott Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 8:38 am

    Wow, what a great post. I might do a mirror post of this. I sometimes think that I want too much, but you have cleared my mind of that. Sometimes wants aren’t less important than needs. Especially these wants

    I want to feel:
    loved
    accepted
    respected
    beautiful and sexy
    butterflies in my tummy

  14. Mrs. F Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 8:57 am

    I want to let go of a whole lot of weight without losing my hot tits, too!

    This is a great post! Love it!

    Mrs. Fs last blog post..You Ask, I Answer~Part Two

  15. Atomic Bombshell Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 9:20 am

    Ahh… That was nice.

  16. Sybil Law Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 9:30 am

    Excellent lists.
    I want…
    currently, to sleep well at night.

    Sybil Laws last blog post..Can’t Come Up with a Good Title

  17. Krystle Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 9:41 am

    Great post, you can tell you wrote from your heart and what you truly want to feel/do in life … I might have to steal it… :)

  18. Sarah Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 11:30 am

    I love your list. It’s just beautiful.

    What do I want? I just want to be more confident in myself.

    Sarahs last blog post..Benefits of life at home during the college years

  19. John Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 12:30 pm

    Bless you Hillypoo. : )

    Johns last blog post..Whee Doggies!

  20. HoosierGirl Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 12:47 pm

    I’m with you on the “lose weight without losing my awesome ta-ta’s”. :wink:

    J.

    HoosierGirls last blog post..Friday Fill-ins

  21. Linda Sherman Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 4:29 pm

    Hilly, This was really nice.
    Your twitterbud @lindasherman

    Comment luv never works for me (tear) so since you are being so kind as to allow the link, please allow me:
    http://itsdifferent4girls.com/blog/2008/07/31/powerful-voices-at-blogher-in-san-francisco/

  22. adena Says:
    August 1st, 2008 at 4:37 pm

    I love this, and I probably should do it…but, it’s just a leeeeettle too personal for me to put on my blog.

    I love your answers, though!

    adenas last blog post..These Music Meme’s Kill Me EVERY Time!

  23. Tori Says:
    August 4th, 2008 at 9:05 pm

    I’m sure you figured it out… but I stole this… thank you! :sleep:

    Toris last blog post..I WANT

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