September 10th, 2008

Love, Peace, And Grease…

Yesterday I went scouring Facebook for people that I used to know but have lost touch with recently. No no, I didn’t stalk the people who I probably shouldn’t look up anyway…these were all good people. One of them is an ex-boyfriend of mine who I have always thought was a really great guy, and after finding him on Facebook, I sent him a little email. Here was his response:

“i’m good, still engaged and still in [censored], workin for [censored].  hows it goin’ in hilly land?   even though you post a lot on snackiepoo.com, you don’t really talk about yourself a whole lot =P”

My first thought was, “Wait, he reads my blog?  Awesome!”.  My second thought was that he is completely right about me not really talking much about myself or the aspects of my every day life.  I mean, sure…I talk about my feelings and views alot but when it comes to the every day ebb and flow of what I do and where I go, you guys get bupkus.  I have many reasons for that, including the fact that I often don’t feel like I can exactly put all of the details of my life up here.  I may be  honest and open about my feelings but I have a lot of private and personal things that go on behind that scenes and you know what?  I’m okay with that.  However, if I have to be honest with myself, I think that the main reason I don’t talk about the day-to-day is that it would really bore the shit out of everyone.

Seriously.  My life?  Not that fucking exciting.

I’m not saying that it’s a bad thing because after the last year, I could use time to pass by without grand epic events that devastate me and/or rock my little world.  Honestly, if you knew the every day ins and outs of my life…you’d be snoring!  I don’t expect you to just *believe* me cause you are bloggers and half of you are cynical at that.  So yeah, here’s a day in the life:

1.  Wake up without an alarm clock.  Yep, I wake up with the sun.  I’ll soon be screwed when winter comes but for now, it’s a helluva lot nicer to just wake up without the blare of pure evil.
2. Get ready for work. Big decisions made here are: hair up or down, full makeup or half makeup, and which way I’ll be eating my eggs that I eat every. single. day.
3. Go to work. Sit in meetings. Play online. Count the hours til I can go home. However, when you see what happens next, you’ll wonder why I count.
4. Go home. Have my daily phone call with a friend.
5. Work out. Okay, let’s face it…this is not a DAILY thing.
6. Errands….oooh, excitement! Dry cleaning, groceries, blah blah blah.
Snoooze….oh ahem, sorry. I fell asleep and this is MY blog.
7. Make dinner. This actually takes a lot more work than it used to now that I am on South Beach. I actually have to like prepare shit, chop things, season here and there. Life was even more boring when I just stuck a box in the micro!
8. Play online.
9. Watch TV.
10. Blog about TV.
11. Go to bed.

Sure, you throw a few tosses at Twitter in there, maybe a blog entry or two, and sometimes even meeting a friend for lunch or dinner but quite honestly my life is lather, rinse, repeat.  This is why I talk about how I feel and/or share the thoughts that just run amok in the middle of my head.  I think I’m having a cerebral phase right now.  Yes, that’s how we shall market this.

My moments of exuberance seem to stem from the big things in life.  I’m the kind of person who very much needs the next “big event” to look forward to.  I know it’s no way to live…I should be in the “here and now” and just be glad for every little moment that I get.  Partially I am but geez, I’m not that fucking zen.  I need to know there is more out there, something in the distant future which will brighten up my life.  It seems silly to think that “big event” can have that much pull yet at the same time, recent ones have proven to change my life in very significant ways, so uh yeah.

Hey, maybe the “big events” are where I meet people that change my life and/or make huge life-altering decisions to change this or that.
Maybe the “day to day” is where I implement those changes.
Who knows? Who cares?

Back To Waxing Prosaic Tomorrow Kisses,
Me

Posted in Hilly's Life 2008, Redefining Hilly | Comments (17)

17 Responses to “Love, Peace, And Grease…”

  1. suze Says:
    September 10th, 2008 at 12:14 pm

    “I’m the kind of person who very much needs the next “big event” to look forward to.”

    I totally get that. I’m a lot that way too. Which means that it should be no surprise to me that now that the wedding and the honeymoon are done and I’m back to real life without any big event looming in the near future I’m feeling a little adrift… Routine is just that - so routine.

    suzes last blog post..discovering my inner fashionista…

  2. Princess of the Universe Says:
    September 10th, 2008 at 12:15 pm

    Am I allowed to ask what kind of work you do- or is that a taboo Q??
    xo

    Princess of the Universes last blog post..The Princess’s First Ever Video Blog!

  3. Hilly Says:
    September 10th, 2008 at 12:19 pm

    Suze: Yep! I very much had something to look forward to this weekend, which is now not happening. I feel a little lost and a lot icky about it.

    Princess: You have mail!

  4. Bec Says:
    September 10th, 2008 at 12:29 pm

    And yet your life is still way more exciting than mine! My big event of the day - going to the pharmacy to pick up my prescription. Yep. It’s all rock n roll here! :rock

    Becs last blog post..Redecorated

  5. Sybil Law Says:
    September 10th, 2008 at 12:33 pm

    It’s funny, though, how when there IS something big going on in our lives, how we then can’t wait for a nice, boring night of tv.
    My life is boring, too. Totally. Even with the kid, because during the school year, it’s strict bedtime routines and all that crap.
    I wouldn’t mind a little somethin’, comin’ along to shake things up a bit!
    Now I am going to find/ stalk you on Facebook. :D
    Sybil Laws last blog post..Sistine Bubblewench

  6. Dagny Says:
    September 10th, 2008 at 12:34 pm

    OK. I said I wouldn’t write more than a paragraph about this past weekend but now I’m thinking I should. I hate feeling like I am in a rut of sameness, and that is what routine can become for me at times. Lots of the conversations I have had with family members and family friends over the last month or so have helped me in forming some of my current decisions. And yeah, some of these folks are rather zen.

    Dagnys last blog post..Another section possibly filled in

  7. diane Says:
    September 10th, 2008 at 12:40 pm

    I’ll trade ya. I want routine more than anything right now!
    Also, this made me laugh:
    “I didn’t stalk the people who I probably shouldn’t look up anyway…these were all good people.”
    So glad I’m not the only one who does that…ha ha ha :D

  8. Karen Says:
    September 10th, 2008 at 1:18 pm

    I loved “A Day In The Life Of Hilly”. Sort of like my life, except you left out the wine. Wine is important.

    Karens last blog post..Enough is Enough

  9. Rick Says:
    September 10th, 2008 at 3:50 pm

    I hear ya wit “the next big thing.” Janet Reno told me I had to stop working on the last big thing. (That’s a Browser War reference, 4 U kids.)

  10. Miss Britt Says:
    September 10th, 2008 at 5:38 pm

    I thought everyone who lived in the OC led exciting, high profile lives???

    Miss Britts last blog post..An Open Letter To Independents and Undecided Voters

  11. Winter Says:
    September 10th, 2008 at 5:45 pm

    Most people’s day to day is boring. People think working at the cemetery is soooooo different. No it’s not. Meetings with Subway sandwiches. Users who circle jerk me. Passive aggressive co-workers who slag off and blame shit on me. Ho freaking hum. The life inside my head with my characters is FAR more exciting. Which is totally why I write.

    Winters last blog post..TeeVee Eye Candy

  12. jenny Says:
    September 10th, 2008 at 7:25 pm

    I think your next big event should be getting a cat, because then you could add things like:

    7.5 Clean cat vomit off of carpet before landlord comes over to install new windows

    11.5 Shove cats off your head for the 4,000th time because for some reason that’s the only place they want to sleep.

    One of us! One of us!

    jennys last blog post..Riddle Me This

  13. SJ Says:
    September 10th, 2008 at 10:32 pm

    Oh my god, my life is SO much more exciting than this! I get to work all day with 3-inch-thick legal files and researching contracts!

    Wait, what? Oh. Never mind. :(

    SJ’s last blog post …The Incredible Shrinking Woman

  14. Selma Says:
    September 10th, 2008 at 11:32 pm

    Yep, sounds like my life too. Sometimes I spice things up, however, by having an extra cup of coffee. I’m daring like that!

    Selmas last blog post..Lineations

  15. Poppy Says:
    September 12th, 2008 at 4:50 pm

    I am so effing happy to not live in VT today. I logged into Facebook this afternoon and found on MY STATUS PAGE that my very first serious boyfriend had commented on a co-worker friend’s status… MEANING MY CO-WORKER KNOWS MY EX. I then scoured my ex’s friends and found that OTHER PREVIOUS CO-WORKERS AT A DIFFERENT JOB KNOW HIM.

    CAN I GET NO PEACE AROUND HERE?!???!??!?!?!
    :doh:
    Poppys last blog post..Beauty Queens, Queens, Subways, and Tower Power

  16. Poppy Says:
    September 12th, 2008 at 4:51 pm

    *(my status page being my notification page, sorry for the lingo screw-up, I’m new to the internet… harrrrrharrrrharrr)

    Poppys last blog post..Beauty Queens, Queens, Subways, and Tower Power

  17. kilax Says:
    September 21st, 2008 at 6:56 am

    I sometimes feel like I am living for the next big event too. I worry about that. I want to enjoy the little nuances!

    kilaxs last blog post..Embracing a transformation

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