September 19th, 2009
This just in…
As soon as you announce to the world that you are happy, something will really fucking break your heart.
I’ve spent the last hour crying so hard that I just threw up. I know that I’m bordering on drama queen status here but I really don’t fucking care what anyone thinks.
Conversations were had that have been boiling under the surface and words were said that can never be taken back.
The moment that you realize that someone thinks as little of you as humanly possible is a moment that breaks you.
I thought I wanted him back but the truth is that I don’t even know the man I spoke to tonight. That’s not the man I loved.
And my heart is shattered. And I don’t care.
I’ll move forward eventually but right now, I need to go throw up again.
I’ve Got No More Kisses To Give,
Me
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September 19th, 2009 at 10:05 pm
Oh no. I’m sorry babygirl. It’s not fair.
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September 19th, 2009 at 10:09 pm
Shit. I’ll hold your hair. I’m so sorry.
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September 19th, 2009 at 10:30 pm
I’m sorry. Need a tic tac?
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September 19th, 2009 at 10:34 pm
I’m so sorry darling.
I’ll get you a cool rag for your forehead.
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September 19th, 2009 at 10:36 pm
Oh sweet girl. I am so sorry. I wish I could be there for you right now. Know that my heart is with you. XO
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September 19th, 2009 at 10:38 pm
DAMMIT. I’m so sorry…need a hug? I’m an awesome hugger.
Cry, throw it up, and move forward – you’ll get through this; you are doing SO awesome.
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September 19th, 2009 at 10:43 pm
Oh noes. You poor thing. here’s a hug
and I can totally get wasted for you if you want. 
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September 19th, 2009 at 10:50 pm
I’m so so sorry.
I can’t help you in the toilet area but am available when you get back.
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September 19th, 2009 at 11:22 pm
Big Hugs, Hilly. Two steps forward, one step back…You’re going to get through this.
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September 19th, 2009 at 11:33 pm
Oh honey, I am so sorry. I wish I could be there to hold your hand (and your hair).
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September 19th, 2009 at 11:36 pm
So sorry. Sending you hugs and breath mints.
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September 19th, 2009 at 11:41 pm
Oh Hilly, I am so sorry you are hurting. You don’t damn deserve this and it pisses me off. I wish I could be there to hold your hair while you hurl and then just hold you while you cry. Sending much love your way.
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September 20th, 2009 at 12:04 am
I’m sorry, Hilly. (((hugs)))
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September 20th, 2009 at 12:13 am
Hugs darlin…even though virtual today soon they will be real.
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September 20th, 2009 at 12:17 am
I had it so wrong…Hil…I’m so, so sorry that it took this turn. I’m saying a prayer for you tonight and more than ever wish I could be there with you. Love you and please call the minute you feel up to it.
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September 20th, 2009 at 12:28 am
I’m so sorry. If I were there I’d get you some Kleenex & a Diet Sprite. Hang in there!
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September 20th, 2009 at 12:30 am
Oh honey, I wish I knew WTF to say to make it better.
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September 20th, 2009 at 12:39 am
Just before the dawn, it often gets really freaking dark.
Daybreak’s coming. Hold on.
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September 20th, 2009 at 12:56 am
Save your kisses for someone who deserves them. He clearly doesn’t and he doesn’t understand what amazing person he just irrevocably dismissed.
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September 20th, 2009 at 1:00 am
I’m so sorry. There are no words to make you feel better, but I’m here if you need a shoulder or a hug.
Kisses for you this time,
Lisa
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September 20th, 2009 at 1:09 am
I’m so sorry. You so don’t deserve to be treated like that
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September 20th, 2009 at 1:32 am
Wow, just wow.
I wish I knew what to say, but sometimes saying nothing is best. I am thinking about you….
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September 20th, 2009 at 1:34 am
He doesn’t deserve you. I’m so sorry.
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September 20th, 2009 at 1:42 am
I would still totally make out with you even after you vomited. *HUGE HUGS*
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September 20th, 2009 at 5:38 am
Murphy is a motherfucking douchenozzle.
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September 20th, 2009 at 7:49 am
Sending Hugs – it’s amazing how people can completely do a 180 and you’re like ‘who the hell ARE you?! And where has this animal been hiding for the past — years?’ It is inexcusable and if nothing else, it can serve as a confirmation of the decision that brought you to this point – it was the RIGHT decision and you are in a better place. I’m just sorry that this moment sucks.
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September 20th, 2009 at 8:46 am
No more talking to him for a good long while.
I haven’t talked to my ex since a random incident where the insurance company mistakenly contacted him to tell him I was trying to insure my car in NY without his name on it (turns out they had their information incorrect in their database, nothing wrong was occurring as they had stated). That last conversation went very, very poorly and I told him not to talk to me like that ever again. And I’ve never reached out to him again for any reason.
He was a chapter in your life. Let that be a chapter with an ending and move on to your next chapter.
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September 20th, 2009 at 11:00 am
I’m sorry, Hilly. I wish I had something profound to offer.
I promise, it does get better.
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September 20th, 2009 at 11:44 am
I’m so sorry. I wish I could give you a real hug!
Let those emotions out… you’ll feel better in the end!
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September 20th, 2009 at 12:09 pm
Maybe it’s best that this happens now…
but damn it sucks. Hugs and whatever else you need.
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September 20th, 2009 at 12:36 pm
Sorry to hear you’re in a bad place. Hope you feel better soon.
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September 20th, 2009 at 3:34 pm
I’m really sorry, hon. I don’t think there’s much else I can say besides that.
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September 20th, 2009 at 5:41 pm
So sorry. Thats hard to deal with.
I have cried hard myself this week over some sad news.
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September 20th, 2009 at 5:55 pm
The best I can suggest is to surround yourself by friends as often as possible and keep yourself busy.
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September 20th, 2009 at 6:18 pm
I’m so sorry honey. I know that pain is a neccessary evil of this process, but I had hoped that you had passed the worst of it already. Hugs.
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September 20th, 2009 at 6:30 pm
Hi Hilly,
I hope you are okay. I have never commented but I have been reading your blog and it has helped me deal with my recent split. I hope you feel better and I do understand (which is why I read your writings).
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September 20th, 2009 at 7:17 pm
Really sorry, too. The only positive I can offer up is that barfing isn’t bad for overall dieting if it’s not a habit.
Okay, so I’ve nothing of any substance to offer up.
Kind thoughts it is, then.
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September 20th, 2009 at 9:01 pm
fuck. i hate that he hurt you so. and i hate that there really isn’t anything that any of us can do to help. (but if there is, please ask. you are loved.)
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September 20th, 2009 at 9:51 pm
I am so sorry. Fucking sucks. He’s clearly an assface.
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September 20th, 2009 at 11:44 pm
Damn him and double damn him. He’s not stopping you….you will get to that happy place and you will stay there for good.
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September 20th, 2009 at 11:55 pm
Hugs to you!!!
This isn’t probably what you want to hear, but clearly you made the right decision. People who love each other don’t say hurtful things that rip the other person to shreds.
My low was being told that he hated me so much and that if I died he wouldn’t come to my funeral.
Funny thing is though that he wouldn’t even really be welcome at the funeral.
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September 21st, 2009 at 7:00 am
I know words can’t make you feel better. I hope you got all the bile out and will be able to get your happiness back again soon.
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September 21st, 2009 at 8:36 am
I hate this for you so much. I hate that you’re hurting.
I love you. Lots.
And I’m right here.
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September 21st, 2009 at 9:19 am
I am so sorry you are hurting. I wish I could give you a big hug. If there is anything I can do from here, please let me know! Otherwise, just know that I am thinking good thoughts for you!
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September 22nd, 2009 at 10:56 am
I know I am late to this and you’ve already posted again but I still wanted to chime in with good thoughts and virtual hugs. This breaking up stuff is really, really hard. xo
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September 22nd, 2009 at 9:49 pm
Oh, fuck. I’m so sorry, hon. I’m so sorry. To find that out is heart-rending, I know. I want you to know that I’m here if you need a don’t-know-much-’bout-what’s-going-on shoulder and ear.
Much love.
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