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Remember, Remember The 4th Of November…

October 28th, 2008

Sorry V, I’m taking liberties…

As everyone knows…all the political rhetoric that has been haunting us for months and months is all about to come to a head in one week from today! I once again encourage you to go out there and rock the vote like the super stars that you are! I feel like this election has been the most important to me, especially in the fact that there is no degree of indifference regarding the candidates this time around. I’ve always been able to see reasons to vote for both sides but not this year. Nope, I voted already (thanks absentee ballot!) and I voted for Obama.

It may come as no shock to many of you that I am a Democrat (who, by the way, is married to a Republican…who, by the way, is voting for Obama). When looking at the California State Propositions this year, I wanted to be really informed and not just vote down party lines. I spent hours reading up on each initiative, researching which agencies took what position and then made an informed decision all without first looking to see my own party’s position on each Prop. Amazingly enough, I agreed with the Democratic view all the way down the line, except for one measly little thing that gnawed at me, until I decided that it was okay to swing to the right just a little teency bit. Taking a cue from Brandon, and because I am not someone who needs to hold her choices close to her chest, here’s a little sample of how I voted on some of the California Propositions:

Proposition 1A - The Safe, Reliable, High Speed Passenger Train    (Yes)
Someone who spends as much time as I do traveling back and forth between Southern and Northern California would be a fool not to want to ride that bullet train, baby! Still..chances are it won’t pass.


Proposition 4 - The Abortion Waiting Period and Parental Notification Initiative     (No)
This amendment to the California Constitution would basically prohibit abortions for unemancipated minors until 48 hours after physician notifies minor’s parent or legal guardian. One of my major arguments in dealing with the abortion issue in general (besides the glaring issue of civil liberties and my right to my own choices) is one that comes up as a major reason that I voted no on this Proposition. Let’s pretend this initiative passes and now all of sudden you’ve got teenagers getting abortions in “back alley” clinics just to avoid dealing with their parents and maybe, just mayyyybe these “back alley” clinics aren’t safe and/or sanitary. This initiative is risky to teens in many ways and is also opposed by The California Medical Association, The California Teachers Association as well as the American Academy of Pediatrics, California District.

Proposition 6 - Police and Law Enforcement Funding    (Yes)
This is the one where I went all Righty Ford for a moment. I just believe that anti-gang and crime reduction measures are extremely important.

Proposition 8 - Eliminates Right of Same Sex Couples To Marry     (No, No, No, No!)
If I could have voted “no”on this four times (or even more), I certainly would have. I’m with Brandon in the fact that any initiative that starts out with “eliminates rights” is one that I will be vehemently against. I’m a liberal who loves um…civil liberties. Marriage is love, plain and simple. Why deny someone the right to marry the person that they love just because it may make *you* uncomfortable? What? Because you want to preserve your family and don’t want to have to educate your children on the reality of this world? How exactly is it different when Mikey and Paul get married versus Mikey and Paul living together? You’d think the morality police would welcome marriage instead of living in that sweet sweet sin. In any case, they are still two dudes. They are still in love. They are still not hurting you by making their own decisions. Furthermore, although I do not believe that homosexuality is immoral (and yes, I am a Christian), let’s say that you do. Giving someone equal rights in marriage is a state issue…remember that little annoying thing about separating church and state? Sheesh, I could go on and on but bottom line is this…”Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves.”

You may not agree with my decisions but there they are! My bleeding liberal heart used her right to vote and hopefully made a difference…yanno, in her already totally blue state, haha.

Now then, why did I vote early? Because bitches…I am going to Florida for Avitable’s Halloween party and will also be celebrating my birthday there with some very awesome people…yanno, on November 4th as well. Go go me, having my birthday on Election Day! I think it will be really neat to be out celebrating my special day, surrounded by hope and hoopla! Plus, it doesn’t hurt that I’ll be with big old Obama supporters as well. Dude, the best birthday present ever? Obama wins!

Filet Mignon With A Side Of Stella Kisses,
Me

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High Strung, Saying X Amount Of Words…

December 17th, 2007

Would it be strange for me to come here and blog that I am too busy to blog?  Yes, yes ideedy!  It’s not that I’m too busy to write something completely random but I don’t have it in me to wax prosaic!  I also really really really need some time to sit down and read all of YOUR blogs.  I have no idea why it is taking so long to unpack this frakking house!  Maybe it’s because usually I’m more of a "hide it in the closet" sort of girl.  You see, my version of a clean house is a lot like my life…well put together where you can see it, but messy on the inside.  For once, I am not just shoving stuff into closets while fooling myself that I will get to it later.  I’m actually taking the time to organize and be all proactive with getting rid of excess and man oh mangoberry, is it time consuming! 

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By The Time You Read This Note, I’ll Be Gone….

November 20th, 2007

By the time that *most* of you read this, I will be having my surgery.  It’s scheduled for the butt-crack of dawn Wednesday morning, which of course makes me deliriously happy.  I love getting up at 5:00 in the fucking morning!  Yeah okay, maybe not….but I will say that I am happy that after tomorrow, my healing can finally begin and maybe I won’t have fucking arm and wrist pain every day of my stinking life anymore.  Oh geez, for those of you not up on my latest dramas and traumas, my surgeries are a simple carpel tunnel release and then a little bit (but not much) more complicated procedure on my tendinits in my arm.

Anyway, what this means is that I probably won’t be typing much over
the next few days, so please pardon my leave of absence.  I guess it
comes at a good time, what with it being an American holiday and all
that jazz.  I’ll probably pre-draft Snackie Sunday then let the rest of
the days fall quiet around these here parts.  Of course, as soon as I
say that, I will be calling Foo, begging her to post something for me, then bitching cause I like five dots in my ellipses while she only used three.
Then she’ll get exasperated, hang up on me, and I will lose my BFF.  Le
sigh, guess I better just find a way to shut up for a few days ;).

So, I guess it wouldn’t truly be me if I didn’t leave you with a
topic of discussion as I sashay out the door.  Everyone seems to be
asking what your favorite Thanksgiving foods are and/or what you are
thankful for.  So, I won’t do that….cause I never really was a
joiner.  Nope, I’m going to ask you something totally different.  How
about this:  What is one thing that you would like to change over the next year that will make you ultimately happier inside?
Maybe it’s something you need to actively do…..maybe it’s something
you need to "get over" so that you can move forward…..maybe it’s a
simple lifestyle change…..maybe it’s an emotional thang.  Whatever it
is….tell me about it (yanno, as little or as much as you feel
comfortable with).  I’ll just simply say that I’d like to get control
back over my own life instead of feeling like I am always reacting.  I
know I’ve mentioned it before.  Some of it is situational for now and
some of it is my tendency to go all Scarlett O’Hara when things get
super rough and complicated.  Hell, at least I know that much!

I hope that everyone has a great holiday and an even wonderful long
weekend.  I will be reading blogs through my feed reader but will let
my hand dictate whether or not I can comment.  One handed typing is
more of a pain in the ass than you would think!  If you really need me,
email me or text me,  Hell, you can even call me…if you have my
number, that is!

Thankful For All Of You Kisses,
Me

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If You Have Nothing Nice To Say…..

November 13th, 2007

Lately I’ve not been feeling like myself in the sense that I am way more humble than usual.  Yanno, it’s not like I lack humility in general but there is always that little attention whore in me that feels the need to comment on a blog, even when the shit I have to say is really not necessary.  Lately, I’ve not been doing that.

There’s famous saying that goes a little something like this: "Do not speak unless you can improve on the silence".  But how the hell do you know when the silence is good and necessary vs. when you really need to say something to someone?  Generally, when I get out of sorts with a person, I head right for them and try to figure out what the hell is going on.  I’ve always been a ball-busting force of "let’s fix it" nature but lately I feel like I’m curving my body to fit everyone else’s bow. 

I never miss a good chance to shut up.  I know when it is time to dial it back and stay quiet.  But I also associate silence with extreme anger because that is where I go when I don’t know how to contain my vitriolic words.  People that know me well exclaim, "Oh she’s quiet….Hilary must be pissed!"  It’s good fun and all that, but it is sadly also true.

But back to the bow and the curving…..what do you think is better?  Staying quiet and leaving well enough alone when it eats at you OR saying what you need to say and letting the chips fall where they may?  What do you do?

I’m sure the answer would be to find peace in the unspoken words but seriously….have you met me?

Silence Is Not Always Golden Kisses,
Me

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Went Looking Behind Every Door For You….

October 25th, 2007

It’s time for bullet-style thoughts, without the bullets because they just don’t please me aesthetically.  Shhh, yes I am a freakshow.

Hallo-Fucking-Ween:  Hey, have you met SJ?  You know her….she went wild and sexy with me at Oceanside pier, got some of the best damned pictures with Captain Awesome and Neil at Dave LA, and talked me through my fantasy head when it was swimmy and confused.  She’s a righteous babe who totally just pulled me out of a huge jam today and I cannot thank her enough.  She’s a good egg with a good idea, btw.  You see, she’s started a Halloween Meme called Behind The Mask and I think it is a faboo idea and something everyone should try to take part in to make it more fun! 
You can go to her site to read the details.  The gist is that you list however many bloggers you want and link them.  Then you list things that would correspond to them and make people guess who relates to what.  Some ideas are, "which song lyric is this person?", "what quote came from this person?, "what is this person’s worst dislike?" and so on and so on.  She explains other options over there but it is a great way to get creative!  Shockingly enough, I am going to do the lyric thing most likely…maybe.  So go and play and get your ass a cute banner like the one in my sidebar!

Rush:  So I have this 6-disc MP3 player in my car, which is where most of my music is housed.  Generally I play each cd on "random" so that I get a variety.  One thing this means is that I never know what song is next nor do I know what will play when I switch the disc!  Freaky deaky time….the last four days I have come out of work singing a song then thinking that I would get in the car and play it on the way home.  Each day that I have done that, I would click over to the disc that I know it is on and whammo bammo, that exact song would come on first!  Today it happened again.  If I do it tomorrow, I am such the Goddess!

Lame-o:  If you "volu-quit" (i.e. get pissed off about getting coached about your poor performance and choose to snivel and run away rather than fix it), don’t come back for your final check three days later and start yelling at everyone in the HR Department, especially the new girl.  How exactly again is it my fault that you are an asshole, Quitty McQuitterson?

Closed:  Sometimes I have to stop paying attention to certain people and certain things because I can’t handle them anymore.  What I mean by that is, sometimes stuff hurts.

Kindness:  Today I have experienced more kindness from people that I could even begin to imagine.  People have pulled me out of jams, comforted me while I cried, came to my defense agains the aforementioned bastage, and complimented things that I did not know shined through from my insides.  It sure beats yesterday when I hated everything about myself.  Man, I wish there were no days of hating everything about myself.

My Soul Is Bare Kisses,
Me

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Forget Friday, It’s Freaky Monday!

October 22nd, 2007

I woke up with every intention of telling you all about the Malibu fire and other fires that started yesterday.  I also was going to come here and ask that you all send prayers, love, juju, thoughts or whatever you believe in to those people in those areas.  And then I turned on the news and was wholly stunned that the first semi-coherent stream of information into my brain is the fact that Orange County is also on fire and they are evacuating parts of Irvine, the city in which I live (now you can really stalk me).  I just realized right this second, as I am typing, that in order to get to work I must go the way of the fire unless I go around the Pacific Coast Highway, which I will probably do.

Anyway, here’s the thing….I am hoping that living in SW Irvine will allow us to be far enough away from the fires not to be affected and/or evacuated but the Santa Ana Winds are making it impossible to gauge whether or not the damn thing will move quickly.  As I am watching the news now, I am worried about a friend that lives in an area that is being evacuated.  Cripes!

Anyway so yeah, can you all do whatever you all do and send some love our way?  There are fires from Malibu all the way down to San Diego County and I am not sure when it will let up.  Freaking Santa Ana Winds.  I know everyone thinks, "Oh there is always a fire in SoCal." but this one is pretty huge. I mean, there are fires down the whole of Southern California, we’re under a "state of emergency" and there is so much smoke in the air that it makes breathing oh so fun.  So please pray, think, juju it up, give cosmic love….just think of us kindly, will ya?

Here are some pics that I took last night when it was just the Malibu fire’s smoke that the Winds had carried down to us, 65 miles South.  It’s going to be an interesting day at work today, that’s for sure.

ETA: What?  WHAT?!?!  The news is reporting that the OC Brushfire was caused by arson…freaking arson?!?  What kind of asstard starts more fires when it’s already Armageddon over here?

Smokey Kisses,
Me

PS…..Fab thinks I am awesome!  That will be all, thanks.

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The Line In The Sand When I Go Too Far

October 9th, 2007

I’ve been doing so wonderfully at eating well and moving my ass lately but yesterday that came to a very loudly obnoxious screeching halt.  To be fair, it started with Sunday night and the great Trader Joe’s debacle.  You see, since the dawn of time (or, since the dawn of me shopping at TJ’s), I’ve wanted nothing more than to try their mini chocolate-chocolate bundt cakes.  I’ve always managed to avoid them, knowing that the calories and fat in one of those fuckers could feed me for a week.  But I did it, took the plunge, tasted the chocolate and you know what?  They weren’t half as good as I’d thought they would be.  All of that build up and I was left deflated and disappointed.  Mind you, that didn’t stop me from eating the damned thing.

Yesterday, I made an impromptu decision to visit SJ and have a girls afternoon of lunch and erm, pie.  I hadn’t eaten anything too heinous at lunch and as SJ is always fond of saying, I played with my food more than I ate it.  I think I get that way when I am talking about a subject or two that really captures my interests and makes my "eyes dance".  Ahem, anyway….it was great to get out with her and just completely shoot the shit without the barriers and walls that I have to put up around so many other people.  If you took my quiz yesterday and came to the conclusion that my really close friendships are few yet arbitrary, you would have been correct.  Each person that I am close with brings something to my life that I really respect, love and need and I hope that I do the same in kind.

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Baby, I’ve Got A Crush On You…

October 6th, 2007

No really, I do have a crush on someone.  So much so that I emulated him yesterday in the sincere hope that I could be just as cool and well-known as he is.  You see he’s got game, but not the kind of game you normally think of.  Nope, his game is falling down and his name is Humpty Dumpty.  While I’m sure my crush on him is just a passing fancy that allows myself not to feel like such an asshat for tumbling down a flight of stairs, it feels good to know that he and I share a connection and that someone else has been where I am today.

*snort*

In all seriousness, I’m not sure but I think I once posted about my jacked-up ankle but never thought I did get back to you all with the diagnosis.  You see, apparently my arch is impotent (for lack of a better word) therefore my foot spreads out flat with I stand up.  This, my pretties, causes my Achilles tendon to work overtime and my left leg seems to be bearing the brunt of it all.  Right now, my Achilles Tendonitis is so close to tearing that it’s not even funny.  In fact the ER doctor yesterday gave me these new anti-inflammatory* drugs and told me to ice my leg every single time I get back from work and/or other activities where I walk around.  Gee, you mean like every minute of every day?  If I don’t take it a bit easier, I could end up having major surgery and then could be in a cast for 6 months…uh, no thanks.  It’s bad enough that the man ordered me some orthopedic inserts to put in my shoes and that he expects me to wear them.  "But you will have to wear flat shoes for awhile", he said.  I almost fainted right then and there, not from the pain itself.

Meanwhile back to Humpty Dumpty and why I was at the ER in the first place.  My ankle hurt like hell yesterday and gave out as I was coming down the stairs at work, holding a few boxes of presentation folders and materials, mind you.  As I fell the length of about 8 stairs and tumbled with all of the grace and glory that one can muster in that situation, a coworker walked by and said, "hey are you okay?" then walked on.  Ahhh, more illustration of why I love that place ( as sarcasm oooozes from my body).  So I walked into my boss’ office, told her what happened and she immediately sent me to the ER on the company dime….not because she was concerened that I was crying and hurt, but mostly so that I would not sue their asses.  Geez, what kind of asshole does she think I am?  I would not sue someone when I feel due to a condition that I know I already had.  Long story short, I spent a bit of time in the ER then came home.

Meanwhile, along with my anti inflammatory drugs, I was given these crazy assed super duper pain pills that not even *I* have taken before.  They did the trick but I was so loopy and giggle-riffic last night, as a certain someone that I was emailing back and forth with all evening can most definitely verify.  I ended up passing out while trying to watch Doctor Who around like 9:30 or so and woke up this morning in so much pain in so many places that I cannot even begin to ask you to kiss my boo-boos cause you’d be kissing my body all day long.   Oooooh, wait…..

No One In The ER Looks Like George Clooney Kisses,
Me


*Meloxicam Side Effects may include: constipation, diarrhea, gas, heartburn, nausea or vomiting….good times.

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Warning: Bullets and Exclamation Points Ahead!

September 28th, 2007

1.  A friend of mine who reads my blog called me yesterday and was like, "what’s up with you?  Your seem so out of sorts this week!"  Ugh, really?  So I went back and looked and had to laugh….yep, seems like it.  I think there are just times that I use my blog to wax poetic and talk about all of the wonders of the world, times that I use it as a medium to get attention (whore!) and times when I just plain use it to bitch all week long!  I’m actually not out of sorts really, except for the sleeping thing, but yah….guess I’ve just been venting and it’s time to get back to whatever it is that I normally do up in this beyotch (like swear a lot!).

2.  Is there something sad and pathetic about the fact that my Friday thrill is going to be seeing a package on my doorstep when I get home?  First, before you let the judgment begin, I have to tell you what will be in the package!   You see, about three plus weeks ago, the a/c adapter for my laptop just up and died on me…*sniff*.  So I finally remembered to order one at the beginning of the week. According to UPS, he will be mine, all mine by the end of business today.  I really have missed having my laptop because I use it all of the damned time.  Someone recently asked me how in the hell I watch all the television that I do plus read blogs and the simple answer is "multi-tasking".  I do them both at the same time, just not when I have to come down a hillyillion stairs to do so!

3.  Because I like my brilliance in post-script, I finally realized late last night what part of the whole "not sleeping" thing was about.  I had been taking Xanax for a month to keep me stable while I transitioned my other meds and uh duh, took the last one on Saturday.  Even though I still stay that the full moon and my lovely TOM were culprits, that Xanax thing has to play a factor.  Can I just say, "Damn, Gina!"?  I only took it for a month and feel like I have the DT’s?  What about people that take it for like years?  Owie zowie!

4.  A certain someone likes to tell me that he has to teach his phone new words every time he plays text tag with me.  Hey, it’s not my fault if he wants to use such naughty and filthy language….yanno, cause all of my language is pristine!  As a matter of fact, the reason I brought that up is because I’ve spent the last few minutes pouring over this post and adding some of my flavorful words to the spell-check dictionary.   I’m up to "C" now….I wonder what else there is? 

5.  I finally have mastered the trick of not letting someone negative get to me and it is amazing.  See, usually even though I say, "pfft, I don’t give a crap", I really do.  I guess that my inner and outer bravado are quite different.  Then again, there’s a lot inside of me that’s quite different than most people think.  But anyway, I usually let it rent space in my mind for a few hours and this morning I totally was like, "whatever".  It feels great to just move on and not obsess over this small thing that someone else said or did, except yanno….posting about it and all.  That’s not obsessing, right?  Is it?  No?  Yes?  Why won’t you tell me?  ;).

Clearly In A Better Mood Kisses,
Me

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The Beautiful Ones Always Smash The Pictures

September 27th, 2007

Have you ever been just absolutely miserable even though you don’t want to be?  Every fiber in my secret little Pollyanna soul really does scream that everything is going to be better and that if I just keep on moving and smiling, I will be okay.  The damned thing is that I believe it too.  However, there’s one thing that can bring me to a halt and make everything tainted and washed in black….insomnia of the most heinous kind!

Everyone experiences insomnia a bit differently….some people get physically ill and can’t function the next day.  Others seem to deal with it quite fine, living the day-to-day as if they didn’t just wake up at 4am again.  And then, there are those of us in between…those of us who have it come and go so much that neither of those extremes is plausible.  Were the "not sleeping" bullshit a regular thing for me, like it used to be, I’d get used to it and adjust my life accordingly but as it stands now, it comes and goes every 4 months or so.  I have not had a decent night’s sleep since last Friday night….not even when I was drunk off of my ass, thanks.  The last two nights however have been awful….I’ve been unable to sleep until midnight, waking up at 4am and any sleep in between has been peppered with weird dreams accompanied by tossing and turning.  Oh woe is me, I am such the total Drama Queen today.

The problem with not having much sleep is that things start to happen to my body.  First of all, since I have anxiety disorder (which is normally totally treated and fine, btw), I start to get really paranoid and nervous about things.  Don’t worry, I won’t be on a lawn near you asking why you don’t like me anytime soon….I still have my sense of detached decorum.  My actions are fully manageable and my fake niceties are fully intact but my head is racing with way too many thoughts at one time and I tense up then make myself even more incapable of sleep.  I don’t even know what the hell I got bunged up about last night but let’s just guess that it was the same that it has been all week….work.  Yeah, I can’t talk about that here but sufficed to say that there is a huge disconnect between my personality and the personalities that I work with so it makes it odd every day for me, but whatevah. 

The other thing that I am going through is not being able to eat, which you would think would thrill me to no end, right?  Ehhh, I kinda like to make the decisions on whether or not I am going to be gagging down my meals, yanno?  Hey, I’ve lost 5 pounds in 3 days so maybe I should just continue to stay awake forever ;).

Anyway back to being jumpy…I just took off my glasses to rub my eyes and saw a freaky male shadow on the wall.  I nearly jumped out of my seat and attempted to hit it with my fabulous arsenal of Swingline Staplers.  When I put my glasses back on so that I could see to kick much ass, I realized that it was the desk lamp sitting behind my Homer Simpson Bobblehead casing a bouncy shadow and not, as I had suspected, the ghost of Alfred Hitchcock coming to kill me.  Geez, nobody ever tries to stalk or kill me anymore…what’s a girl to do?

Deluded Demented Dysfunctional Kisses,
Me

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